Standing strong in the storm

 One of the hardest things about cutting ties with a toxic sibling is that you miss them.  Toxic people are not mean and abusive 100% of the time.  You think about the good moments and set aside the bad.  They rely on that.  They can be super nice and charming.  They say they love you and will always love you....then they strike!

I have a kind and forgiving heart.  It is difficult to stay angry and stress can make me sad to the point of depression.  I tend to let a lot pass to keep the peace.  I think that makes me good target for an abusive family member.  It is interesting, if a non family member treated me this way, I would simply walk away and not look back.  We are conditioned to believe that the bonds of blood are impossible to break.  I am here to say that is NOT true.  Break those bonds and free yourself.

Given my willingness to forgive, I always allow my toxic sibling back in.  Then I get hurt and abused again and again.  I overlook the harsh treatment and cruel words.  There is never an apology for any of their behaviors,  Never.  This time I have to stay strong and never fall back into that trap.  That is, honestly, the hardest part.